Please forgive my absence. I was in a terrible car accident back on January 21. And it has been a LONG and SLOW recovery. The accident happened on the freeway coming home from work. There were 4 cars total and I was the last car to get hit. The car that hit me was this big GMC SUV
Did I mention I drive a very small car- Chevy Volt…
Yeah, that’s what was left of my car. On the inside, all the air bags went off. The GMC hit me sideways and bent the frame, totaling my car. I am so thankful my kids were not with me. I was taken to the hospital via ambulance and diagnosed with a concussion.
There’s a saying in the world of concussions- no two are the same. Yeah there are common symptoms but they are all different. Mine turned into my worst nightmare. For the first couple months, all I could do was sit in my basement- mind you all the windows were covered in packing paper- sit in the dark with the lights off while wearing sunglasses, and pet my dog. If that doesn’t sound bad, try it. All you have is your mind, your dog, and darkness.
I couldn’t listen to the radio, watch tv, look at my phone, or read. All I knew was pain, so much pain. My thoughts weren’t mine. They were destructive and negative with such foreign depressing thoughts.
From there, I saw 6 doctors for an hour each week, sometimes two times a week- I’m talking Occupation Therapy, Physical Therapy, Speech Therapy.. It felt like I saw every type. I couldn’t drive, and every time I got into the car I would have a panic attach.
Months past. I missed holidays, my sons 4th birthday. My husband was practically a single Dad having to take care of the boys all on his own, plus schedule my appointments and drive me to them. Oh and do his job… My thoughts were sluggish and I couldn’t remember anything. When I talked, I could hardly hold a conversation. The sound of my kids laughing through my symptoms from 0 to hell. Life was absolutely miserable.
In three days I will be 6 months out from the accident. My doctors think I will be finally able to return to work full time by the end of August. Two of my doctors are talking about exiting me from services. I am allowed to start walking, slowly. Right now I am only allowed to walk for 5 minutes at a 3.0 pace. I can’t believe I went from training for a marathon to walking 5 minutes. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but I still have a long road ahead of me.
Recovery has been painful, slow, and difficult. In the last 6 months, I have been pain free for 1 day. Yes, you read that correct. Trust me when I say I would not wish this on my worst enemy.
Things are different for me now. I now have to wear contacts and prism glasses. I actually have two sets of glasses. I don’t know whoever thought it was a good idea to give someone with a concussion two sets of glasses and expect them to remember when to wear them. Writing this, I realize I have the wrong set of glasses on. Another thing that is different is I am can’t handle the heat any more. It makes me instantly symptomatic. There are other things but I don’t want to bore.
What I really want to say is please forgive the lack of posts. For the first time, I am starting to feel like my old self. And I have missed me terribly! I hope in the next couple months, I get to reconnect with my followers and begin living my life.